Oct 20, 2009

to be loved

it's too late to really go into a lot of details... but i wanted to type a quick something because i just realized i'd let another 2 months go by without recording any electronic thoughts... i've been busy.

i just realized a couple of times tonight how wonderful it feels to be loved.

not because of anything i've done to deserve it... because of who i am...

i'm joyful in the deepest places of my heart. to be understood... to be loved... it's more than i could've ever asked for.

and not only by jesus but by an incredible and godly man.

wow.

wow.

Aug 18, 2009

you know i'm sick when...

i get into a super-hot car with a sweater on... in arkansas... in august... and i remark at how good it feels...

i'm not 100% sure what virus or bacteria has taken up residence in my sinuses (sini? haha... i know it's sinuses.)... and my throat... but it's a bad one...

and i wish it'd go away...

Aug 7, 2009

finally friday

i know... it's been a long time...

been busy... lots of changes... lots of non-changes...

i am going back to school... if i can get everything turned in (and get a MMR immunization sometime early next week), then i will be starting a week from monday at a local community college working toward a technical certificate in medical transcription... i'm curious about it... the school is pretty inexpensive... and i have been looking for a new challenge... the biggest hurdle so far? an immunization record... i'm looking forward to learning some new stuff, though... and to being back in school...

because i don't really have time to go to school and work two jobs... and because i can't afford to go to school and live on my main source of income... i'm moving back in with my family... i need to be saving money and not killing myself, so it seemed like the logical choice... it will happen in a couple of months... and i don't know exactly how long it will last... we'll see...

so, in the foreseeable future (december at the latest), i should be going to one job... my full-time one, not sbux... which is good... because i've been working 2 for 2 years... too too long!!!

and my love life is still great... that's one of the non-changes...

and that's all... i kind of feel awful for a friday night which stinks... but i'm glad it's the weekend!

Jul 10, 2009

sometimes you wanna go where everybody knows your name...

so, today, i realized something...

i should have realized it a long time ago... and then, i should have realized it last weekend, then earlier this week... and then yesterday... but it took today to make it a reality for me...

here's the story (not about a lovely lady)...

i love mexican food... that has to be center to the story for the rest to start to make sense...

of all the mexican food in little rock, i happen to love senor tequila the best... (we don't have a u.s. border cantina...) i love the salsa... i really like the guacamole... i like the fajitas, burritos... all around, it's my favorite... plus, there are several locations in the area... so regardless of where i end up (near work or home... or someone else's home... or wal-mart or church), there's one nearby...

i have eaten there multiple times in a week... it's true... (realization opportunity #1)

sunday came, and chris and i were trying to decide where to eat dinner... and landed on mexican... while senor tequila (who, on my bank statements comes up as "senor tequilla") is not his favorite, he went there with me... mostly, i think, to keep me happy and to not make me eat the gross salsa at la hacienda that everyone that i know, including chris, loves... and senor tequila is cheaper than on the border, which i also love, but not as much...

so, in order to get what i want, i've now coerced another person into going there to eat dinner there... but it was wonderful... (realization opportunity #2)

i've gotten in the habit of going to senor tequila for lunch on mondays... because their lunch special on monday is fajitas for $6.00... that's a deal... seriously!!! with tax and tip, it is usually in the neighborhood of $8... because i'm a good tipper... so monday comes, and i remember that i just had senor tequila on sunday night, but it's "fajita monday," so i must go... and because it's "fajita monday" (which is basically a holiday to me), i go... and i have to convince someone to go with me... because one can't do fajita monday alone... sharing is better, as with any holiday...

so, i've hit twice in one week... not as uncommon as it should be, and probably a bit excessive... and i've also rambled on about fajita monday in crazy-speak and all my friends know about it at work and are now avoiding it...(realization opportunity #3)

i signed up for mint.com this week (yesterday)... and i LOVE IT... it breaks down my purchases and shows me (conveniently) where i've spent money... luckily for me, it doesn't lump all the senor tequila locations together when it sorts them and lists them... i mean, i've looked at my bank statement online, but it's just a list... not a pretty pie chart that shows just exactly how ridiculous i can be with my spending habits... now, thanks to mint.com, i know that senor tequila is one of the places i spend money most frequently... not the grocery store... not the gas station... but senor tequila... (realization opportunity #4)

so, today... i have been pretty good about eating food i brought with me to work this week... not eating out as much... and working through lunch... but today, i needed to get out of the office... no one wanted to go with me, and it was too late to call friends not at work with me, since i was hungry right then... so, of course, i make my way down to my favorite lunch spot...

today's special was a burrito for $5, so i opted for that... because i love them and it's cheap... almost moe's cheap, if you ask me...

and i sat and worked a sudoku puzzle while i ate... just hanging out...

and i go up to the counter to pay...

the guy behind the counter looks at my ticket and says, "no fajitas today?"

my name is robyn and i'm addicted to senor tequila (specifically, but not limited to fajita monday).

Jul 2, 2009

just a few minutes...

i just have a few minutes... still juggling 2 jobs, church, and regular life... and now i've managed (or tried to, anyway) to throw another someone into the mix.

he is wonderful... seriously...

but i doubt he's ready for me to spill my guts (and his) on such a public venue...

one month in... i've been waiting for red flags and warning signs... and so far... not one... all signs point to yes. (what is that thing that the magic 8 ball says? is that it? anyway... green lights, blue skies, walking on sunshine...)

so i've jumped in... falling quickly...

it's the best feeling ever...

and time is up... off to work i go.

Jun 15, 2009

ok... i'll say one more thing...

i have been laughing and smiling a lot more than usual... i think i even snorted 25 times in a row on friday without stopping... people have said i've been glowing... (haha!!!)

life is good...

and i'm amazed...

he likes me. he really likes me.

*sigh*

more details to follow... maybe... :)

Jun 13, 2009

i haven't been sleeping much lately...

i've had a few distractions...

well, let's be honest... one distraction.

it's a good thing, though...

and that might be all i'm willing to say at this point.